Thursday, March 20, 2008

Scarred for Life

Every once in a while I'll a get a phone call
that makes my heart race
It could be the time of day
It could be the way they ask for me
It could be the fact that it's a stranger
Sometimes it's not.

Today all the puzzle pieces were in place
My husband...is out of town
He is at a funeral for one of his oldest friends
(that call came at 5:30 am)
and this morning my phone rang
It's the way she addressed me
it was the tone in her voice
and it was someone I didn't know
all of that put together...made my heart STOP
It all took me back to that phone call
I received last summer.

All she needed was a sub for her primary class
It has taken me over an hour to get over my panic
and I feel like I want to cry

Part of it is because I couldn't be with Doug for this
we have no one we can leave the kids with overnight
I am sick over the loss of this friend
It was shocking and so sad for his family

Doug will be home this afternoon


VivaLasFloyds said...

Sorry about your friend...and hope your husband gets home soon, safely.

Jen@eighteen25 said...

i've never recieved such tragic news as you did, but i absolutely know that feeling. if the phone rings at an unusually early or late time i'm afraid to answer it fearing it must be bad news.

sorry for the loss of your friend and that you couldn't be with your husband for the funeral.

Stephanie said...

Sorry for the loss. Your family has been through so much. It just seems like one thing after another. Just breath. I have been taking a lot of deep breaths through the nose. They really help.

Cammie said...

Oh Carol, I can imagine how your heart would just ache at those early and random phone calls! That must be so hard.

FrankNApril said...

Hey~ Call me I would of stayed the night w/your kids! Really I would. I have those moments as well! When my son passed away! Sorry you have to deal with those moments! It is hard! April