Friday, June 22, 2012
Some Random Stuff.....
I went through quite a funk recently with my scrapbooking.
I was feeling stale.
And worn out with life.
I just didn't have the enthusiasm like I normally do.
And it sucked.
I hated feeling like that.
And to be honest, I was letting rejection in this business get the better of me.
So I let it breathe, or fester....whatever.
I fought it a few times, but ended up just walking away.
I literally didn't scrap for weeks.
And I felt a little lost......I would waste time doing absolutely nothing, or wandering around my house cleaning this or that, but feeling like I wasn't doing anything!
Than I decided it was time to play.
And i did, without thinking too hard or following any rules.
And it made me HAPPY again!!!!
It was such a relief.
You see, this is my happy place.
It's how I relax and rejuvinate.
And to think I had lost that ability was kinda freaking me out a little.
I neeeeeed to do this.
Those colors down there, they make me happy.
That FACE makes me happy.....I love seeing my children frozen in time, captured in there childish perfection. Creating a history for them, a window into their most precious childhood.
Childhood is a fleeting memory with fanciful dreams and wishes. I want them to know that theirs was real, that they played, that they dreamed, that they had a lot to say! And that I always adored them!
I remember having a blissful childhood.....I know it wasn't perfect but the things I remember, the snippets of me that I cherish are wonderful. I wish I could get a better look at it.
And let me just tell you.....Instagram sure is making it easier to do that!
I took these pics of Samantha at random one Sunday, with her curled hair and then a handful of dolls. Her childhood.....to a T at this moment ;)
And then she does something like this.....creates a beard with her long hair and finds some old baby hat and stuffs it on her head. I want her to remember, after life gets harder, that she was a goof. That she knew how to be happy and how to find joy in the silliest things. Hopefully it will help her to carry that on....after life has tarnished her a bit. That her joy will still burst out amongst it all.
October Afternoon.....those are always good for direction when one doesn't know where to start ;)